Apply for a Reading — Aesthetics of Leadership

Basic context

Let's start with who you are.

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Current role or focus required

One sentence is enough. We will go deeper inside.

I · Identity and performance

What shaped you.

Question 1

What did you have to be good at to be loved as a kid? Where did the standard come from — a parent, a coach, a sibling, a system — and what did you become to meet it? required

Question 2

What metric organizes your life right now? How much of it would you call clearly, unmistakably yours? required

Question 3

Describe the gap between how you appear from the outside and how you feel from the inside. required

Be specific. No one but me will read this.

II · Body and presence

What the body has been carrying.

Question 4

What signal has your body been sending that you've been managing rather than listening to? required

Sleep, energy, libido, the gut, tension that won't leave, anxiety you don't have a name for, an injury that keeps coming back.

Question 5

When was the last time you were in your body without a purpose attached to it — not training, not performing, not optimizing, not recovering? What did that feel like, or when did you stop being able to remember? required

III · Patterns and readiness

What you've been doing about it.

Question 6

What does the voice in your head say to dismiss this — the application, the Reading, the work — even as you're filling this out? And underneath that voice, what is the quieter one you can almost hear, trying to say something you don't have words for yet? required

You don't need to articulate it precisely. Gesture at it. The questions you can't fully answer are themselves diagnostic.

Question 7

If you stopped performing for a week, what do you imagine would happen — to you, and to the people around you? required

Question 8

Why this, and why now? What made you fill this out today rather than another day? required

IV · Care and expectations

Where you are right now.

The next question is asked of every applicant. It is not a disqualifier. It is how I determine whether we work together now, whether you should work with a clinician first, or whether we can work in parallel with care you already have.

Question 9

Are you currently in any clinical care — therapy, psychiatry, treatment of any kind? Are you experiencing any crisis, including thoughts of self-harm, severe depression, or substance dependence? required

Please answer honestly. Your answer determines the right path forward, not whether there is one.

Closing

What would have to be true at the end of this year for you to know something real had shifted? required

Not a goal. Not a metric. A felt sense of change.

Before you submit, re-read what you wrote. The questions you sat with longest are the ones already speaking. If anything you wrote surprised you, leave it in.

Before you submit

I understand that a Reading is a coaching and advisory engagement. It is not therapy, psychotherapy, medical care, or psychiatric care.

I understand my answers will be read and held in confidence.

You'll hear back within 48–72 hours.

The application is the beginning of the work.

Let's start with who you are.

What shaped you.

What the body has been carrying.

What you've been doing about it.

Where you are right now.